is it just me or does Justin Bie.ber look like a baby dyke?

I mean seriously! Kid looks like a cute little lesbonaut. My sister always tells me "Lesbians who are attracted to butch women are really just attracted to men, then" (Hey this is her logic, not mine!) I'm dying to ask my sister if she thinks the tens of millions of tween girls who love Bi3ber are really just lesbians, since he looks like a woman. :)

So blessed.

We just have the best little girl. She hardly cries, she's very expressive, smiles/coos a lot, sleeps 6-7 hours at night, she's healthy...

We just went to LA for a few days. My mom watched her during the day while we went to Disneyland. She LOVES Samantha. She cried when we left. It was nice to see her attached to her grandkid. We had a great time and now we're back at home. I went in to visit coworkers yesterday and just driving to work - I got an anxiety attack (sweaty palms, rapid hb, felt sick). I don't know how I will go back in 5 weeks. I feel sick thinking about it!

For now here are some fun pics from the last few weeks! Most are from our LA/Santa Barbara trip, and some are from hanging out in San Francisco (including Sam's first time at the beach!)

Look who's talking now!

Pictures!

Ok, so I had my good cry yesterday over my weight gain (despite trying so hard to be healthy and exercise). I'll continue to exercise (went for a 1 hour fast walk today) and eat well. Last night I made us homemade pulled lamb gyros and strawberry shortcakes. They came out so good! I'll be sure to keep my calories where they need to be. Amazingly, my supply hasn't decreased at all the last few weeks, though, despite the caloric cutback.

Time for pics!!! I have a lot more (and some videos) to post soon. Samantha is 3 months old tomorrow, and she is so much fun. She grabs her feet, talks a LOT, had her first laugh. I absolutely love this age, and I am so completely in love with my baby.

Over it.

I'm sick of this shit. Everyone I know quickly went back to their pre-preggo weight. I'm sitting here working SO HARD to lose the weight, and it won't come off.

instead, I am GAINING weight! Yes, gaining. (And I'm not doing weight lifting so it's not muscle)

Last week I had gained 1/2 pound and was mortified. So this week I worked out TONS, and ate perfectly all week.

Breakfast: egg + turkey bacon
Lunch: 80 calorie soup OR open faced turkey sandwich with little mayo
Dinner: Veggies and chicken or a Weight Watchers recipe

I got on the scale today, hoping I'd at LEAST had lost the 1/2 pound. I FUCKING GAINED 1.5 POUNDS!

How the fuck do you gain 1.5 pounds after a week like that. I could not possibly be trying any harder than I am, which means I will just keep gaining weight from now on. I will never get NEAR my pre-preggo weight.

I had 13.5 pounds to go. Now I have 15 pounds. I seriously want to cry right now.