Furious and Enraged

So we were driving back from the gym this morning.. and on the busiest streets (right off the highway) in our town, were 30-40 "YES ON 8" people. (Prop 8 will eliminate the right o gays to be legally married in CA)

They are all holding signs, and they ARE FULL OF LIES!!!! You wanna know what their signs say?

Prop 8 = Freedom of Speech (WTF??)
Prop 8 = Parental Rights (are you effing serious?)
Prop 8 = Religious Freedom

I was so enraged when I saw those lying, misleading signs. How dare they try to steal votes by lying. Prop 8 is NOT about parental rights. I can't believe they have the balls to even suggest that. And religious freedom, freedom of speech? Prop 8 takes that away!

I am so mad. They know the only way to win votes is by totally lying about the subject. There wasnt one sign that said anything about marriage. They may ask well say "Yes on 8 = bringing our troops home" and "Yes on 8 = no more income tax"

Those fuckers - I am so mad. I could tell they were all Mormon, too. I yelled out NO ON 8 to them. They are lying, mean, fuckers. I fucking hate all of them.

I got home and called our LGBT Center. They dont have any rallies planned, just phone banks. They also don't have any NO on 8 signs. sigh. So I called the No on 8 official HQ in SF. They dont have any rallies out here. Just one in SF (really? do we really think a SF rally is most effective?). They finally gave me the # of the San Jose "No on 8" office. They dont have rallies either, but do phone banking. They asked if I can volunteer on election day at polling locations, to hand out no on 8 pamphlets. I'll do that.

I also convinced Becky to volunteer a few hours at the No on 8 office with me. We will try to go today and tomorrow.

Ugh, just so furious, I cant even explain how mad I am right now.

I Haven't Laughed This Hard in Ages

Remember the crazy McCain rally supporter?

SNL "Thursday edition" made a sketch out of her. It was so funny, we watched it twice. I laughed so hard, I could barely regain my breath. Click on the link below and watch the top video. There are TWO times when they introduce her, so keep watching!

Click here to watch the video.

So funny, I promise.

Found out new RE!

After waiting 2 months to get an appointment, we met with a new RE & facility last Friday. This was the last of the fertility docs in the area for us to interview. So far, we hadn't been impressed with anyone else. This lady had been recommended by another lesbian couple, who cried while describing this RE because she'd taken such good care of them.

We really like this doctor. She started the Portola Valley Women's Health.
Why I Loved This Doctor:
* She immediately told me I need individualized fertility help. She said because I'm dealing with frozen sperm, timing is critical.
* She said she believes frozen sperm live 8 hours - I nearly fell off my chair. This is the first time a doctor has agreed that sperm don't live for 3-4 days after IUI, which is what my current RE claims.
* She will let me choose Femara or Clomid. (My current RE pretty much forces you on Clomid)
* She proactively asked me to check my thyroid, since she said my level back in Feb was borderline not normal. My current doc never even brought this up - and apparently low thyroid can prevent pregnancy.
* She recommends ultrasounds immediately before each IUI, to see if I've ovulated yet. (I like this idea)
* Their office is a 15 minute drive from my work office. Versus my current RE, which is a 1 hour drive!!! So sneaking out for appts is very difficult, as I end up missing 3 hours of work.
* She accepts my insurance, and will submit claims.
* She feels that I should get IUIs when my body needs them, not just limited to certain morning hours.

The Drawbacks:
* Only 2 doctors at the facility. Might be hard to get appts??
* No cryostorage. But this is ok. Now that we are using CC, they have a storage facility in Palo Alto. (few miles from this doc)
* They are expensive!!!!! Right now I pay $285 for ultrasounds, and $175 for IUIs. This place charges $370 for each. Monthly fees for two iuis could be $1500, not including $1000 for sperm. ouch.

I think we are going to try using this place for our next few rounds. In the meantime, we will use my current RE for my polyp surgery next month. I will also get my thyroid checked out. I read that your levels to get pregnant and sustain pregnancy need to be 1-2. Mine was 2.9. (The threshold for "normal" is 1-3, so I am borderline)

I am just glad we made some progress, and found a new doctor! Let's hope her prices make up for the promised individualized attention. I am so ready to get back on the TTC wagon again...alas, I have to wait two months still.

PS - I am so proud of my girl! She is painfully shy, especially on the phone. She 'cowboy'd up' and is volunteering at the Prop 8 phone bank tonight at the LGBT center in San Jose! I am too afraid of phone solicitation, but I am so proud of her for doing this. She really stepped up her game.
PPS - Speaking of games, I am MORTIFIED at how the Red Sox played yesterday!

Just a quickie.. (that's what she said)

My head cold is finally getting better, but I made an executive decision today. I told my doctor I am opting out of my surgery next week. I just don't want to be under general anesthesia while recovering from a chest infection/cold. Maybe I'm a wuss, but I just don't want to do anything stupid.

Not to mention, in the last two weeks my aunt and grandma both died. I think I need to put more space between their deaths, and my surgery. For my sake, and for my family's sake.

Gosh though, I hate that this delays TTC another 2 months. We started trying in April, and we've only been able to try 4 times! Our next try won't be until December/January! :( We will do Try #5 w/no drugs, but if it gets to Try #6 - we are starting Femara.

Tomorrow we interview a potential new RE & facility, and one much closer to where I work. (a 10 minute drive, versus my current 1 hour drive - yes, each way!) This will make escaping for my myriad appointments a bit easier.

I heart Levis

So most of you are probably aware of Proposition 8. (The measure which would eliminate the rights of same-sex couples to marry in CA). Prop 8 is getting tons of funding by religious groups.

Levis just made a huge donation to the fight AGAINST Prop 8. Yay Levis!!!!!! Yay for them believing in equality.

I found this link, where you can write an email to the company. Select the "company feedback" option. If you can, please take the time to write them - and thank them for their donation/supporting equality. :)

http://www.levistrauss.com/Company/ContactUsForm.aspx?loc=

sickies

I have an incredible head cold. My breathing is heavy, my head is all foggy and pressurized, I'm sneezing, my lungs feel filled with phlegm, and my nose is stuffy. Oh, and I started my period today. I'm supposed to have my surgery next Tue or Wed, but now I think I have to decline. I don't think they will put me under general anesthesia while I am so sick. Not to mention, I would opt out of it, anyway. Given that general anesthesia makes your lungs stop working, so you require constant artificial respiration - I'd rather not have two lungs filled with phlegm.

I left my doc a message about this, and as usual, they haven't called back. last week I called to reschedule my surgery (since I hadn't started my period yet), and they didn't call back all week. I left them 4 messages. They suck. We interview a new facility this Friday, thank god.

Just bummed that now we may have to wait another month for surgery. Which means another 2 months before we can try again. We'll end up with 4-5 tries between April and Dec! Lame.

Even lamer, Becky tells me the polls now show californians in favor of Prop 8. Looks like it will pass, after all. Friggin Mormons. Friggin Catholics. Friggin religious right. Bah humbug.

Getting back into the swing of things

Made it through my grandma's funeral yesterday - I cried more than expected while giving my speech. It was a very sweet service, and we celebrated grandma's long life.

Since my sister and her family are in town, we met up this morning. Took the kids to "The Jungle" - a really cool spot for kids. My nephews love me, which is so sweet. They are only 2.5 and 4 years old, but they constantly shout out "Aunt Carrie! Aunt Carrie!" They wanted me to witness everything they were doing. Spent the whole day with them, and now I'm admittedly exhausted.

After spending the day with two tots, it reminds me how much work it is to have kids. Wow. I was exhausted only a few hours in! I better toughen up if I'm supposed to be a mom someday. :)

Last but not least, my surgery is being pushed out at least a week. I was supposed to have surgery in 4 days, on the 10th day of my cycle. Since my period still hasn't started, I'll need to wait another week or so. I've never had a late period, and it's already almost a week late! I wonder what's screwing up my cycle?

Ok now time to read all of your posts, and catch up!